It’s probably popped in there due to some of the amazing people I have met recently, seeing people push themselves, thinking to myself “I can do more! I can do those sort of things”.
The thought I’ve been having? I haven’t done anything. I haven’t achieved anything.
I want to think that it is an intrinsically generated feeling, but it will be a bit of peer pressure that has helped it grow.
|It's not like I haven't achieved things!|
And on top of this I have a feeling of inadequacy, coupled with frustration. The feeling of inadequacy isn’t a bad thing, so long as I understand why it’s there. I need to keep it as a feeling that is driving me and making me realise that I need to push myself further, see what I’m capable of.
The feeling of frustration is probably the main issue. The frustration of not doing the things that I feel I’m capable of. The frustration of not having enough hours in a day to do these things that I think I’m capable of. The frustration of always thinking about the things, of thinking about the things others are doing, of thinking about why am I not doing the things!
This has been bothering me for a few weeks now, and then I heard someone say something on the radio the other day:
“The difference between doing something and not doing something is doing something”*
I’d probably change it slightly for me to be “The difference between thinking about doing something and doing something is doing something”, but essentially it’s the same thing.
Go do it.
So, I’m going to get started doing something about it. Stop thinking about the things and coming up with excuses that turn into frustrations.
Make the time.
Do the things.
I mean the things may be things that others have done, I’m not that creative to think of new things, but it doesn’t matter. I want to know if I’m capable of doing them, whatever they are.
I KNOW that I am capable of doing them, I just need know that I can DO them.
And it all starts on April 6th. I’m going to run the furthest I’ve ever run. I’m going to push myself further than I have before. I know I’m capable of it, now I’m going to take the control and show that I can do it.
I’m going to make sure I know I can do it. Because it’s not stopping there. There’s going to be plenty more!
*the quote is from James Corden. I’m not a fan of his, but this quote made perfect sense and probably explains why he is so successful.
**What’s that? What am I doing on April 6th? Well, I thought you’d never ask! I’ll be completing an Everesting Challenge! That is running up and down Castle Road, between ye Olde Trip to Jerusalem and the Robin Hood Statue, 412 times! This will equate to 8,848m of elevation, and I’ll be covering 56 miles. I will be raising money for Maggie’s Nottingham. I will give more details out soon J